#girls when they are the problem: am i the worst you've ever witnessed

[cosmiclove-heavenstruck]

I'M THE PROBLEM!

anti-hero, taylor swift // antichrist, holly humberstone

[mzannthropy]

Gilmore Girls might be called a comfort show, but I find a lot of the writing frustrates me.

Rory telling Christopher not to call Lorelai anymore was such a powerful scene, but it accomplished nothing, bc two or three episodes later, Lorelai is back on the Christopher bs. Problem is, Lorelai was not yet ready to let Christopher go completely. She first needed to properly get over him, forget any notion of them ever making it as a couple one day, extinguish that torch she had carried for him for years--and that should have been followed by Rory's speech. Imagine, when Chris called Lorelai bc he didn't know what to do with Gigi, imagine Lorelai telling him: "well, tough, she's your kid, not mine, bye!" When Chris actually complied with Rory's wish and stopped calling Lorelai, it was so disappointing to see Lorelai contacting him and inviting him to the Dragonfly like a pickme (sorry I know this word is overused these days, but what else am I gonna call her). Rory at least had a good idea to snub him when he came to see her at Yale--but then, of course, Christopher's dad had to die and all that badassery was trashed. Imagine Lorelai's reaction to news of Strobe's (or whatever his stupid name was) death: "awww, RIP. What's for dinner?" Both G-girls crawling back to him with cookies and alcohol. Worst of all, Lorelai lying to Luke. It's just so... frustrating!

It's also unfortunately very human, and no doubt you've witnessed instances of similar behaviours irl. (Heck, I once deluded myself believing I could have stayed friends with my ex-husband.) But that's why we want better from stories.

Anyway, just wanted to write that out.

[heartfullofamor]

Everyone Adores You (at least I do)

Summary: You're a childhood friend of Miguel, you've been in love with him for a while but you've always been too afraid to speak your mind.

Pairing: Miguel O'Hara x fem reader

Word Count: 716 (so short I'm sorry!!)

A/N: This is my first fic ever so please be understanding with me. I appreciate any criticism you have for me and I am currently writing pt. 2 as we speak, hope you enjoy!

Tags: Unrequited love, angsty, some fluff if you squint. Miguel speaking Spanish briefly.

Checking your watch, it was 1:15, Miguel should’ve been here 15 minutes ago. He’s usually punctual so you can’t understand why he would be late.

You and Miguel have been friends since you were young. You’ve grown up together, seen one another at their worst, witnessed each other’s first heartbreak and everything in between. Miguel was expected to meet you at your favorite café and catch up. You’re the only non-spider that knows of Miguel’s secret identity, something that you hold very close to your heart.

You found out on accident while snooping in Miguel’s room when you were both teenagers, you saw his suit lying on his bed and confronted him. Teenage Miguel had no backbone and shared everything immediately. That’s how its always been. Your relationship continued to evolve the older you guys got. You never had to question where you stood with Miguel, thankfully.

As he got older his demeanor changed and he became more isolated and distant which you knew this was due to his highly stressful job but his soft spot for you always remained and that was something that you were grateful for.

You guys talk on the phone infrequently but there was nothing like spilling your guts to one another in person.

Just as you were about to sit down at a table, a tall figure comes running through the door so fast you don’t have enough time to move out of the way 

“Hey!” you exclaim, realizing its Miguel, the anger quickly dissipates from your face. 

“Disculpa!!  Sorry (y/n), I tried to get here as soon as I could, I’m sorry I didn’t text.”

He speaks rapidly apologizing and giving reasons as to why he was late. You have no problem catching every word that falls out of his mouth. It doesn’t take long for you guys to fall back into your typical pattern of speaking loudly, cracking jokes, and using hand gestures to magnify your strong emotions. You’re mesmerized with Miguel, his humble confidence, how good he listens and hangs on to every word you speak. It feels good being in his presence knowing that you can be completely yourself.

You briefly consider why you guys never became a couple, but as soon as Miguel starts speaking about a recent date he had been on those thoughts quickly leave your mind as soon as they came. 

“I had a really awesome time, we met while on a mission” He says, “she has such a good sense of humor, we share lots of similar interests in books and movies!” says Miguel excitedly.

“You know what that feels like right (y/n)?” You quickly plaster a fake smile onto your face, 

"Yeah, I totally get how you’re feeling Miggy” Speaking his nickname only makes you fall for him even more. You take a quick sip of your latte hoping Miguel didn’t notice your unenthusiastic response. As your meeting continues the more jealous you begin to feel. Never once were you envious of the girls that Miguel was dating, he had his life and you had yours. It seemed like overnight your schoolgirl crush had manifested itself into an all-consuming infatuation that you were unable to combat.

 “Ay (y/n) me estas escuchando?” Miguel says as he snaps his fingers in front of your face, bringing you back to reality.

 “Are you ok, you seem off, Mamita?” Miguel asks concerned as his eyes dart across your face, searching for an answer. His nickname for you usually brought a smile to your face now makes your stomach churn with resentment. 

“No, I’m good, my job has been kicking my ass recently, you know how it is.” You trail off hoping to get Miguel off your case. He nods in response, dropping his concerns to change the subject to his work with the Spider Society.

As your coffee date came to a close you knew Miguel needed to leave, since there were other universes that needed his help. He gave you a hug before he left and that was it, he was gone. You walked to your apartment, crying softly at what could have been. Wishing Miguel was here to comfort you and to hear you confess your love for him. But all your desires existed only in your mind. 

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

x. eden boy

in which i am the villain.

ever fallen in love (with someone you shouldn't've?) - buzzcocks

- you spurn my natural emotions / you make me feel like dirt and i'm hurt / and if i start a commotion / i run the risk of losing you and that's worse

handsome devil - the smiths

- i crack the whip / and you skip / but you deserve it / you deserve it, deserve it, deserve it / a boy in the bush / is worth two in the hand / i think i can help you get through your exams

why bother? - weezer

- why bother? / it's gonna hurt me / it's gonna kill when you desert me / this happened to me twice before / it won't happen to me anymore

wild world - yusuf / cat stevens

- now that i've lost everything to you / you say you want to start something new / and it's breaking my heart you're leaving / baby i'm grieving / but if you want to leave, take good care / hope you have a lot of nice things to wear / but then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

from eden - hozier

- honey, you're familiar / like my mirror years ago / idealism sits in prison / chivalry fell on his sword / innocence died screaming / honey, ask me, i should know / i slithered here from eden / just to sit outside your door

combat baby - metric

- i want to be wrong, but / no one here wants to fight me, like you do / combat baby, come back baby / fight off the lethargy / don't go quietly / combat baby / said you would never give up easy / combat baby, come back

the pros and cons of breathing - fall out boy

- woah, want to hate you half as much as i hate myself / know that i could crush you with my voice / ... / wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel

go your own way - fleetwood mac

- tell me why / everything turned around / packing up, / shacking up is all you want to do / if i could / baby, i'd give you my world / open up / everything's waiting for you

big g-d - florence + the machine

- you keep me up at night / to my messages, you do not reply / you know i still like you the most / the best of the best and the worst of the worst / well, you can never know / the places that i go / i still like you the most / you'll always be my favorite ghost

i'm just your problem - olivia olson

- oh, you don't like that? / or do you just not like me? / sorry i don't treat you like a g-ddess / is that what you want me to do? / sorry i don't treat you like you're perfect / like all your little loyal subjects do / sorry i'm not made of sugar / am i not sweet enough for you?

reelin' in the years - steely dan

- you've been telling me you're a genius since you were seventeen / in all the time i've known you i still don't know what you mean / the weekend at the college didn't turn out like you planned / the things that pass for knowledge i can't understand

think for yourself - the beatles

- i've got a word or two / to say about the things that you do / you're telling all those lies / about the good things we can have if we close our eyes / do what you want to do / and go where you're going to / think for yourself 'cause i won't be there with you

lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off - panic! at the disco

- is it still me that makes you sweat? / am i who you think about in bed / when the lights are dim and your hands are shaking / as you're sliding off your dress? / then think of what you did / and how i hope to g-d he was worth it / when the lights are dim and your heart is racing / as your fingers touch his skin / i've got more wit, a better kiss / a hotter touch, a better fuck / than any boy you'll ever meet / sweetie, you had me / girl, i was it, look past the sweat / a better love deserving of / exchanging body heat in the passenger seat / no, no, no, you know it will always just be me

playing g-d - paramore

- if g-d's the game that you're playing / well, we must get more acquainted / because it has to be so lonely / to be the only one who's holy / it's just my humble opinion / but it's one that i believe in / you don't deserve a point of view / if the only thing you see is you

if i never see your face again - maroon 5

- now you've gone somewhere else, far away / i don't know if i will find you (find you, find you) / but you feel my breath, on your neck / can't believe i'm right behind you (right behind you)

stop me if you think you've heard this one before - the smiths

- i was delayed, i was way-laid / an emergency stop / i smelt the last ten seconds of life / i crashed down on the crossbar / and the pain was enough to make a shy, bald, buddhist reflect / and plan a mass murder / who said i'd lied to her? / oh, who said i'd lied because i never? i never / who said i'd lied because i never?

silver springs - fleetwood mac

- time cast a spell on you, but you won't forget me / i know i could've loved you, but you would not let me / i'll follow you down 'til the sound of my voice will haunt you / give me just a chance / you'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you